[StuartD]

Ok, put it this way... I never have loved anyone. Well, besides family... even then... I question the extent of it. My grandfather passed away and I don't feel much about it one way or another, even though I should.

But as far as women go, I've never felt anything beyond what you could consider friendship. Even then... I broke up with my last girlfriend because she wanted me to love her, and it just wasn't happening, and I wanted her to be happy. Now she's found someone else.

I sit here thinking that it's good that she's happy, and yet... all this time, I have found that I don't really even care all that much if I see her often, or ever. It's not out of spite, just no desire.

Everyone "should" be capable of love, doesn't mean that everyone is. If one thing is for certain, is that there's always someone who is capable of something, including not loving.

Maybe I'm just being weird and ranting, but I got to thinking about it quite a bit lately.

Why should I HAVE to be able to love? Just because it's what everyone else does? Am I really that much of a freak if it's just not in me?

oh, and I've always really enjoyed Lord Tennyson's poetry. He's one of the greats that really gets you thinking.