my gf is leaving me ..

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in a manner of speaking .. this is our last week together as a couple .. we've been together now for 10 months, un-separable,always in eachothers arms . . like little love birds ... next week she starts a new adventure .. she enters the military as a student officer. it ll be 3 weeks before i can see her and probably speak with her.
then after that we got weekends for about 6 months ... this will go on for 3 years, during til she gets her masters, then she's off for her first and second tour of duty which wil take her all over the western seaboard, yep she's entering the navy as a pilot.
we truly love each other and want to stay together but feel there will be lots of obstacles along the way ... she is young and will probably have the boys all over her. making her all kinds of promises ... she will change from the person i know today thats a givin' . Basic training will break her .. how she is after that I don't know .. can we stay in eachother others hearts this far away from eachother ? during her schooling she'll have weekends off about an hour from where i live, we've talked about me getting a place there to be able to see her more often ... I m very nervous about the future with her .. I'm even more nervous about how I will become... possibly depressed .. not wanting to do much of anything .. etc .. this scares me even more then losing her ...for those that know me well,, know that i am a sensitive person .. pretty emotional .. not a good mix ..

I'm very sad but at the same time Im happy for her .. she will embark in an amazing adventure .. I might or might not be part of it .. who knows .. where will life take us from here ... will she stay in my heart .. will i stay in hers ?

so for the next five days my ony focus is to love her fully and un conditionally .. oh god I am gonna miss her so much !

she's just as confused about this as I am .. we spoke of breaking up .. but then we spoke of making it work .. we're both lost and don't know what to expect .. one thing is for sure though .. we do love eachother but how much ?